The stranger within

I've seen the cobbled streets before I walked up that hill once too The street is long The shops are lined Wedding dresses of white Against Bosphorus blue skies... And then I'm indoors A place of chaos A baby is born You turn to me You shout and scream You try to find me But its too late now My dreams are mine to keep Or mine to share

In your eyes I see love unborn In your smile I see a paradise unspoilt In your voice I hear a love song unsung In your laughter I hear a child unadulterated In your walk I see a man unstoppable When we make love Its unexceptionable And thought the love I feel for you Is unparalleled I know that forever That love will be unrequited Written 2002

I feared I'd die without you How I cried about you I thought the pain would go away But it consumed me day by day You chose to leave me Just to let me be I gave you all my heart You just tore it apart Now I'm numb Hard to believe I was so dumb To have thought that what we had would last Now you're a page in my past It's easy to pretend I forgot But never can I say, I love you not You promised to be mine forever That I know now will happen never I trusted you with my life You said I'd be your wife But now I'm dead You wrote this end Just found this in my old book of poems..written in Jan 2004

"People don't write sonnets about being compatible. Or novels about shared life goals and stimulating conversation. The great loves are the crazy ones. L'amour fou."

I wonder why you'd think it's ok to say "Hello" When I've made it clear that there's nothing left to say I wonder why you think I'm still a child That is delighted by your attention when YOU FEEL like giving it I wonder why you'd think I'd be happy When you don't respect my wishes I wonder if you'll ever understand.... That selfishness is not an admirable trate

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“Hey there you! How are you today? Finally settled into your new place?” Gavin comes up from behind without any sound. “I’m doing cool jazz babes. How you doing? Looking fine as ever” I say with a big smile on face. At least my colleagues are terrific. “So we thought that since this is your first week in the virtual office, we’d take you out tonight for dinner. You need a break Mika. I know coming here to set up this new office is a challenge, but girl, you gotta eat!” He more says than asks. “Oh, that’s so sweet. I’d love to. Where are we heading?” I ask while still staring at my screen. “All over. You just get your party shoes on and I’ll pick you up around 8pm” he says as he walks away. More than a month’s gone by and I still have not heard from Gabriel. It should not surprise me seeing as I was the one to contact him after 3 years. Work was busy as usual and getting home at 6pm just made me want to curl up in bed and sleep the weekend away. Time for a change Mika . At exactly 8pm I...

Just a little note on the book. I started writing the book in 2007 but stopped after my mom actually did die in 2008. I found it freaky! hehehe! Anyhoo, I decided to finish it now. The book is not a biography. Yes some of the characters are based on people I actually know but it's not what's really going on in their lives :) Chapter 2 will be up soon....hope you enjoy the story as it goes on ;) xoxo GM

Chapter 1 “Wow, I can’t believe it’s been three years since I last saw you” I say. This café has always been in the back of my mind but I’ve have never been here before. Now it all looks so familiar, like a dream, yet so very real. I am finally waking up from the dream I’ve had all these years. “Yes, it has been 3 years already. You look the same, yet somehow different” says Gabriel. Staring at me, it’s like he’s seeing me for the first time, all over again. A rush of emotions comes over him, but he just smiles; a sly smile as always. Like someone afraid to smile. “How have you been, Gabe? You look well. Life must have been good to you” I say, as I think back to our last encounter. It feels like a lifetime ago, yet the wounds still linger. They might have all closed up but the scars will always be there. “Why did you contact me after so long Mika?” Gabe asks now. The one thing I missed was his straight forward questions. I stare into his eyes and all I can think about is the man that I...

I was just asked why my blog has been so quiet....it's coz I'm trying to finish off a book I'm writing. So, fingers crossed this will happen soon. But in the meanwhile, as ideas pop into my head, I will write on the blog :)