The stranger within

Heart: How could you do this to me? Mind: I'm not responsible for your actions Heart: Why did you let this happen to me? Mind: I was not involved in your decisions Heart: I'm breaking and you don't even realize..(sigh) Mind: You're not breaking. I won't let you! Heart: Now you care? Now you say I won't break?! You couldn't think and stop all of this earlier? Mind: I wasn't thinking. I was listening to you. Heart: If you were listening, why did you not speak up for me when I started to beat slower? Why did you not protect me from it all? Mind: You're so strong, I never knew you needed my protection. I set you free to live to your content Heart: But I didn't. I could hear you think it too. But you never said anything. you just let me die small deaths every day. Mind: Not every day. You had some fun. I could feel you beating strongly. Heart: I was trying to get away from you. You let me make so many bad decisions and then you blame me later on. Mind...

I sit quietly and observe the world around me I look at the movements and actions All I hear is white noise I listen to my heart no longer beating I see things in my dreams even though I'm no longer sleeping I calm to listen...white noise Where was the white noise when my heart shattered? Where was the white noise when my body raked with sobs? White noise....

I never knew what it felt like to hold hands Until you took my hand in your big one I never knew what it felt like to sleep in someones arms Until you wrapped me in your strong ones I never knew what it felt like to have your breathe taken away Until you carried me up the stairs and told me that you missed me I never knew what it felt like to fall in love Until those tender moments I spent with you

Sometimes I lie awake and wonder How did I give you so much power How have I let you cause me so much pain It's what inside that counts I may have nothing but who I am inside is more than enough It's time that I forgive myself for giving you this power So I can forgive you So I can move on

I forgot what a lingering kiss felt like Until you kissed me last night I forgot what a sensual touch was Until you touched me last night I forgot what it felt like to be loved Until you held me last night

...often make your day! So pull a face and smile all the way!

"If you send this on to 20 people you will be blessed" Seriously? Since when has it become ok to chain mail religion? Was there not a time when religion was a respected thing and now you have fan pages of the church on facebook, constant chain mails of your prayers being answered if you hit forward. Seriously? And here I was thinking that it was between me and my maker the prayer thing, now they tell me I need to spam your inbox in order to get my prayers answered. Send me a joke to my inbox, yes please. Something to put a smile on my face and make my day a little brighter. But please stop chain mailing me to heaven!