The stranger within

We, as women, constantly say how cruel men are... I think I may have found the common thread... They don't just appear We give birth to them They don't just develop We nurture them They don't just get hurt One of us did it first We ask why they are the way they are When we, as women, are the common thread in all their lives

I woke up this morning at 9am to the ringing of my phone I answered a call from my dad but heard no voice I called back and it went to voice mail I called my sister to hear the words "Mom died" The day still plays over and over in my head In a month it will be 2 years And it feels like yesterday It's still hard to believe I lost my best friend The one person that never judged me And while forever I will be sad that you were taken away from me I will always be thankful for the person you made me All the good that I am It's because of you

If home is where the heart is And there's no place like home And the place u always return to is home Then why is my heart no where near my home? Why is my home a place so far away? And why do I not see myself returning there? If you find your true love Why does no one tell you that you might not be his true love? Then does that mean true love does not exist? If your happiness in love is directly dependent on the other person And you can't make them happy Does that mean you should not be happy? If all questions could be answered Would life be easier or Would we simply find another way to make it hard for ourselves?

Some people don't think it's love until it's acknowledged publicly I agree because there should be no reason to be ashamed to be with me

My friends look at you and see the device that broke me My friends say I'm better off My friends say you're no good My friends say being without you is good for me My friends say you never knew how to make me happy My friends say you don't deserve me I have nothing to say... Except... They never saw me at my happiest...in the quiet moments I shared with you

From the ashes she slowly rises She dusts away all that has fallen upon her And looks up... She searches for the memory of how she got here She touches her heart to feel if it beats She breathes... You stand on the edge and watch her You are to proud to help You pretend you don't know her... She's lost in this cruel world She got here for you She was left by you... You look at her like she's a stranger You don't know her at all You look right through her... She looks to find you in the dark She knows you will protect her She doesn't know where to go... You thought of loving her You decided not to try You had no idea... She looks down at her scuffed knees She tries to remember if she prayed for you She dries her eyes... You, no more She rises from the ashes She faces the world as it is She has no idea what it would be with without you She's always looked up to you She's always been so proud to be yours She's yours no more She rises to find her feet The an...

...and I don't know how I don't know where to start Or what to say I don't need to lose you, in order for me to know what I have You brighten up my darkest hours You love me for all that I am and all that I'm not I don't want to say goodbye I can't... And when that flight takes off, a part of me leaves with you For my friend Dave who's leaving back to Munich

Unchain my heart One night stand Secret lovers I love your smile Like a star Make it last forever Sometimes I run Another little piece of my heart I'm dreaming of a White Christmas Shaky ground Last kiss Almost lover Goodbye's the saddest word I'll ever hear