The stranger within

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we ac

It's dark an empty around me The silence so loud My heart skips a beat Where are you? I'm breathing in the polluted air I'm filling my lungs with it It suffocates me slightly Where are you? I turn around to look behind I see you in the eye of my mind You're not so far away You're always around

Your face appears in every surface Your presence ever near You're in my every dream And in my waking thoughts The fog rolls in to obscure my vision I can not see your face anymore It's not there daily It's not there The darkness surrounds me Faded voices shouts softly in the distance The feelings engulf me It inflames me My every waking thought My deepest slumber Your face is in every surface Your voice in my ear

Am I The Fool, Standing on a cliff, one foot off the ground Believing in something that never was? Am I The Fool, To want to try one last time To ask every time? Am I The Fool, Not accepting that this is not what you want Thinking there is a way out? Tell me, am I The Fool To believe that love conquers all To have hope? Or am I simply a Fool That can't accept you don't love me?

The time apart seems to have outweighed the time together The criticism and insults seems to have been far more than the compliments I finally see that it's no longer about you It's about me I got over you and I didn't even realize it I've moved on My heart's no longer heavy And I'm no longer sad I got over you...

I finally realized today that it's over I sat down and gave in to this earth shattering pain It's over You never had to earn my love or trust You just always had it And it wasn't enough for you You left me You let me go And now it's over

According to Elizabeth Kübler-Ross, you have to pass 5 stages of grief when you lose someone, when you're the one that gets left behind. Stage 1 - Denial - Oh my friend how I love this stage. "Of course I'm fine." "I'm great!" "This didn't happen, I mean definitely not to me!" Stage 2 - Anger - Now this one, I never wanted to leave!! "I mean, why did it happen to me?" "It's not fair at all!" "What did I do to deserve this heart ache and pain?" "Why did you do this to me?" "Who else can I blame for what just happened?" Stage 3 - Bargaining - I've just reached you and I'm telling you, I hope you work my friend. "I just want one more day", "I promise to quit smoking right now if...", "If I get just one more day, I promise I will treat you better", "If I get one last hug, I will move on" I'm not sure how long it will take me to get to s