The stranger within

'Twas the year of the strays, the wasps, the crazies, the fabulous, the awesome, the weird, the strange, the laughs, no tears, the hugs, the love, the dancing, the eating, the chewing and drinking. It's the chaotic combination of all of these things that made my 2 Christmases in 2010, the best ever! I've been blessed to be able to say, some of the best people I know are my friends :)

That I might not write another post before 2011...so here's a mix of my favorites for 2010.... Break me Remind me again Where is the new year When the sun shines My heart behave (because I learnt) Revenge on life (when I questioned) The caliber of men (and realized it was about) Getting over you When I give you my heart (was before) After all is said and done (and I realized I can live) Without you (But still) I never let you see me cry (as) The void grows smaller (and I) Demand change (when I learnt to only) Fear only fear itself

Does it make you think of where you where last year Does it make you wonder if today is better than then Does it make you wish you could turn back the clock Does it Does it make you think that without the bad, you would have no idea how to appreciate the good Does it make you think that with every failure, you learnt how to succeed Does it make you think that for your broken heart, you met people that healed it Does it

The fading beat of my heat Reminds me I'm still alive The shortage of breath Keeps me grounded The flow of the water Soothes me The soft kiss Reminds me of you The slumber far away Tells me I'm not healed The miles apart Reminds me we never where The snow caped mountains Reminds me of my pure heart The candy on your arm Reminds me you were never worth my time

Today started with a dream of you Today had an email from you Today for a split second, I thought of you And then you were gone Today you said hello Today I didn't hear you Today you appeared for a minute And now you're gone Today you put your foot inside a closed door Today you thought I'll be home Today I had left Today I was gone Today...you were a day too late

I waited so long I lost count of the days Weeks and months And a year I thought that at some point It would all change It will be as it should be As I want it to be And the day came along And I heard it and saw it And at the end all that was left to say was: "Your girl is lovely, Hubbell"

When uncertainty surrounds you... Do you take a leap of faith or Do you wait just one more day...

To all of you Who supported me With all your might To those that loved me And cared Thank you Diamonds and pearls I may not have But I give my praise To those that gave – That gave me love and support When everything else to me felt lost Thank you And to all of you Who tried to put me down You made me strong YOU made me succeed With all your greed You made ME I am who I am And I thank God That I’m me I’m all that I can be I’m not you I’m ME!!!

The first time you said I love you And I couldn't speak The first time you held my hand And I couldn't walk The first Christmas and New Year alone since you left And now you'll hold my hand and help me walk

I saw you on the street Waiting and wanting I had no idea what you feel That about me you are wondering I saw you in my dreams Standing and watching In the distance You and me are matching I saw you in my waking state I saw you as my mate I see my illusion now I see it now too late

Let it rain Let it pour My tears turn to dust For you I cry no more I reach out my hand To try and mend The broken fence The long lost friend You said goodbye Once too many times So let the rain fall For you I cry no more

A new year about to reach all of us at the same time A new year that will be mine Slowly moving towards me It's almost here I remember the day you said "I love you" I remember it as if it was not that far away A year ago a few days before Time changes "I love you" on a quiet New Years Eve Is "I hate you" a year later I cry to try and stop to the pain New Year, do come now To take me away from the pain that never subsides To start afresh To start anew....

Let me be the one to hold you close Let me be the one to wipe your tears Let me be the one to leave you never Let me be the one you love forever Let me stare at you and see you clearly Let me look beyond what the eye can see Let me touch your cheek and kiss you softly Let me hold your heart gently Let me call you sweetheart Let me hold your heart

I woke up this morning and thought to myself "Where has this year gone and what have I done?" The answer might looks as simple as "nothing" when in fact it is not so... I turned 30...flirty and fabulous!! ;) I made friends that I know will last a lifetime I learnt that people can change!! Impossible as it seems, so true! I've excelled at work I managed to smile 90% of the year even though I've had a broken heart all year I had fun! The most important thing in life!!! Because it passes by us so fast and we can never get those small moments back For all those that entered my life and made it better, Thank You! For all those that left my life and made it better...well, enough said ;)