The stranger within

Sometimes I write and sometimes I cook... Last night I was feeling very creative for about 15 minutes or so and decided to combine those 2 talents (of my many) and so I decided to come up with a dish that is made specifically to the personality traits of a person, as I perceive them. I came up with 3 recipes so far but seeing as I live alone, I can't cook them all at one go!! So today I decided to cook the dish called "Milo" I'll be explaining the main ingredients but not the recipe. I don't share my recipes:) Ingredients and symbolism: Chicken stuffed with... - it's healthy and so is Milo ...Orange capsicum stuffed with figs in brandy - because even though you're healthy, you still like a drink Some lemon zest - because depending on the mix of ingredients, it can either be the most refreshing thing or the most sour thing Caramelized baby carrots - orange reminds me of you. Baby carrots for your childish behavior but also for your childlike behavior, which...

They say Silence is Golden But then The ugly truth is better than the best dressed lie And with Honesty being the best policy Should we just all agree that The Pen is mightier than the sword

Dear John, I remember the first time I kissed you and it meant nothing. I remember the first time I kissed you and my world changed. Those 2 kisses were not so far apart but it took me a lifetime to get there. I remember the first time I saw you and it didn't matter. I remember the first time I looked at you and knew this is where my heart now is. I remember when you walked across the room with your shoulders broad and strong...the arms that would later hold me in the safest place I know. I remember when falling in love with you was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I remember the fear of being hurt, the fear of unrequited love, the fear of waking up one day and you're not there. I remember the morning I woke and you were no longer there... The pain will never be forgotten... Yours forever, Jane

Last year Halloween I decided to dress up for the first time of my adult life! And boy was it a good night!! I wonder what 2010 will hold in store...

I wrote this blog a few weeks ago and thought not to post it. But then I just watched a movie "Why did I get married too" and I figured, I'd post it now Marriage in the 21st century...seriously? Am I really going to go there? Well, yes I think so. I think people are so used to the marriage vows by now, that no one actually listens to them anymore. You've repeated them since you were a kid thanks to movies and television. But really, what's the big idea about marriage? When I was younger, I used to compare getting married to my favorite dish, lasagna. I used to tell my mom that getting married is like having lasagna every day! And finished off the sentence with "although I love my lasagna, do I really want it every single day of the rest of my life" I mean, coz that's in the vows. The whole "forever" bit. The bit that 50% of the world seems to forget if you're looking at divorce rates. So then why get married? I'm not opposed to marr...

She wakes from her slumber To see how the world around her has changed A world with no anger, no resentment and no conflict She stands in wonder As her new world surrounds her This is why she slept so long... To wake to a brighter day A new day A better day She finally managed to make her dreams, her reality...

When you've cut it once too many times... ...there's seldom a way to fasten them again

I silently knock at your door, waiting for your to open up and let me in Your stare at me with knowing eyes The facade does not blind you to see the real me The layers of which I am to be made of I look to see your surroundings And to see if I can be me You hold one hand out to welcome me whilst closing the door with the other The door so nearly closes in my face, you want to hide me You pull me through the small opening where few eyes can see I do not exist in most worlds You do not exist in most worlds We can not exist without one another I let you in to look around, to see through the facade To guide me in the dark

Every time I hit rock bottom I will stand up Every time you insult me I will get stronger Every time you belittle me I will rise from your lashings Every time I fail I learn how to succeed Every tear I cry I learn to smile a thousand times Every time you break my heart I will love more

It used to be embarrassing to make the thing behave With skipping beats and fluttering All through a glimpse of your name I see your name and stare at your face And realize my heart now finally behaves

The caliber of man So often measured by stature By material wealth When did money start to make a man of substance When did morals become obsolete When did success start to make you a better person When did principals cease to exist The caliber of man should never be measured by gold The character of man is where the true value lies

With strong conviction she moves forward Guided by the highest good She holds her integrity, respect and freedom close Seeing clearly now With confidence, courage and strength She journeys on With determination, she seeks the positive side of life Cutting lose from the negativity she has around her She holds within a strong protective energy She empowers others as much as possible A aura so strong It took her a long time to acquire To ensure she was strong enough Word play on my SRT reading for my aura :)

I talk to you But I should not I think of you But I must not I whisper your name softly I can not I look at you And think of "What if" I dream of you And wish to never wake I think to touch you And know I never must You are my apple on the tree The forbidden fruit I'd like to eat I know I need to walk right past you But still I stop to stare To see if I can resist This sweet temptation that is you

One soul separated on earth into two The yin and yang, the twin souls Opposites but also not One complementing the other to feel complete Soulmate relationship... It's in the cards

And the list of the top 10 countries :) click on the image to make it bigger Thanks for all those that's been reading...Now it's time to take it to the masses...will be posting the link on my Facebook page today :) xoxo G

When the strongest human emotion can't withstand time When your love for someone just ceases to exist When will we accept that nothing lasts forever

Friends and Family; what is the difference really? Family are the people we are born into We can't chose them, we can't decide who they are or will be We can't make them think the way we think We can't make them see things our way Family, connected by DNA, but how well connected are you really Friends, like I always say, they are the family you chose They are the people you want to let into you life They are the people that you pick because you think alike And sometimes they know more than your family does So does that make one group more important than the other? Does one have to be heritage and the other have to be sanity? Or can the borders cross?

We all know the age old feud of sexism. Let's not pretend equal rights has been around forever. What baffles me in this whole charade is that although today's men are so progressive with their Ipads, Iphones, Blackberries and cars that no longer need to be wound up before chitty bang banging off, they still put women in a box different to theirs. I, for example, am the only female in my area that does my job. And I do it better than most men. This is fine and perfect really, because females are known to better time manage, so here I get praised when I do something just as good as a man. But when it comes to relationships and dating, men still seem to think that they need to be the alpha partner. The women should not be earning more than them, she should not have had more sex than them and for damn sure she should not move on before them. Now tell me, how is that ok? Is it that their male ego gets bruised or is it simply that can't handle independent women? I think when wome...

So many people live with regret...For the things they didn't do...the things that's passed...a love that's lost or a friend that's moved on We all have those days when we think back to the past and wished we could rewind time and do it all over again...to enjoy the moment from start to end But we had that moment already...we had the chance to say I love you but didn't....we had the chance to dance but stood in the corner...we had the chance But that was the past and this is now...it's better to not live in reminisce but to treasure every minute that we have... You can look at your past and say "Those were the good old days" Or live in the present and remind yourself that "These are the good old days"

The romantic in me is a very simple girl really. Top 5: Most romantic date - Breakfast in bed. Don't ask me why, but I love it! Most romantic flower - Orchids! 2010 has been 1 of my luckiest years so far...I got at least 3 bouquets with them in it Most romantic gesture - Holding my hand when walking. I completely hate holding hands because I'm not an invalid, but with the right person, it's like walking on sunshine Most romantic place - The beach. It doesn't really matter where in the world you are, the sound of waves are just so soothing. Most romantic thought - "He sent me an sms/called me up, just to say hi" So if romance is this simple, why is it so hard to find?

One of the concepts on which Law of Attraction works is Ask, Believe, Receive. It all sounds so simple and yet its so hard at the same time. Asking no one has a problem with but Believing, every human will struggle with. The question is though, is it that we don't believe we will get what we ask for or that we just don't believe in ourselves? Belief should be without second guessing or questioning. Believing in ourselves should make it easy to believe that whatever we ask the universe to give us, we will get, because we are worthy of getting it. Without Believe, the entire triangle just falls apart and we keep asking and asking with no results. Believe that the concept will work when you Believe...

Do you believe that you are daily surrounded by energies? Well, I do. It's just one of my quirks. I think that there's a lot of energies around us at all times....positive and negative. Negative clearly affects us in negative ways. For instance if you're not happy at work, you're not going to put in much effort. Instead you'll be less productive than most happy workers around you. Negative energy is like a "downer". And the weird thing is, we attract this energy to us by the way we think. Our thoughts is what attracts the different energies to us. Here's an example of how one thought can turn full cycle: I get to work in the morning, not in a good mood coz I had to take a cold shower. I get here and 1 person asks me something that I think is stupid, so that annoys me. I then go into a sulk mode where every small little thing pisses me off and I avoid conversation as much as possible. I finally leave the office and go home. Now I bring all that negativi...

9yrs of being friends and still going strong! I miss you and Olinka so much in Dubai! Bug Bug Bug Bug Bug Bug Bug

I actually wrote this as a song...but seeing as no one listens to me in the shower, I thought I'd post it here too :) The door has shut, no light can enter A deafening silence from a heart that beats no longer The touch of your kiss lingers Your embrace still so real I hold on to my memories Crying to never let go Not shedding a tear You will never know my fear I’ve become numb You will never know I’ve become numb I will never show Of the heartless group I’ve become a member The pain you left me with makes me stronger Day by day it passes My love for you has faded I think of you holding me I think of you touching me I think of you lying When you said you’d leave me never I’ve become numb You will never know I’ve become numb I will never show I wake to a new day Your memory has faded I open my eyes I’m finally rid of your lies I’ve become numb But it will never show Hold me now, you want to Leave me never, you promise Leave me now I tell you Forget me never is your fate I’ve bec...

The undeniable closeness of us Separated only by counterfeit pride Do I hope it’s more than lust Could we stand the time? My judgment is clouded Your reasons obscure Your feelings so shrouded My heart feels insecure Do you wonder as I do About me and you Are you hoping as me That you and I could be My fear consumes me now I hate being scared To your imperfect character I bow And pray that maybe you cared

It is crazy, do you not think That still by thoughts we are linked I am trying to get over you But my memories stand in queue My days were filled with fun But now you have taken away my sun To think that one day everything was fine and Now you’re no longer mine It was that first kiss That I now hope I’d missed Then I never would have felt this pain That I through your deception have gained But I will get over you Just like I did with the flu I will pretend you don’t exist and You will be just another on my list

Growing pains Is it all in vain? Do we laugh and learn or Is everything of great concern? We go through love and lies Deception and laughter cries The pimples come and sometimes goes Only to be followed by wrinkles that later show How strange life can sometimes be – I never thought I’d fall in love, not me But then I grew older and Along came you with a broad shoulder Young and carefree, Sometimes even careless, that is me Careless with your love I’ll never be Though I sometimes wonder why you chose me Love and lies Deception and laughter cries Life does make you think: Growing pains, is it all in vain?

You hold my hand for the very first time As we slowly walk the streets of London This is the part where it all changes This is the part where I give you my heart

You know those days when it feels as if time stood still for so long yet it feels as if you've been lost for even longer? I'm having one of those days. Those days where you kinda ask yourself "How did I get from there to here?" It's like you don't remember because it all happened in the blink of an eye...a blink that took a little more than a second...more like a year. And in that blink, the changes are massive yet so very subtle. You can see them but you can't fully comprehend them. But you know for sure, this all didn't happen yesterday even though it feels like it, it happened over a year ago...