The stranger within

'Twas the year of the strays, the wasps, the crazies, the fabulous, the awesome, the weird, the strange, the laughs, no tears, the hugs, the love, the dancing, the eating, the chewing and drinking. It's the chaotic combination of all of these things that made my 2 Christmases in 2010, the best ever! I've been blessed to be able to say, some of the best people I know are my friends :)

That I might not write another post before 2011...so here's a mix of my favorites for 2010.... Break me Remind me again Where is the new year When the sun shines My heart behave (because I learnt) Revenge on life (when I questioned) The caliber of men (and realized it was about) Getting over you When I give you my heart (was before) After all is said and done (and I realized I can live) Without you (But still) I never let you see me cry (as) The void grows smaller (and I) Demand change (when I learnt to only) Fear only fear itself

Does it make you think of where you where last year Does it make you wonder if today is better than then Does it make you wish you could turn back the clock Does it Does it make you think that without the bad, you would have no idea how to appreciate the good Does it make you think that with every failure, you learnt how to succeed Does it make you think that for your broken heart, you met people that healed it Does it

The fading beat of my heat Reminds me I'm still alive The shortage of breath Keeps me grounded The flow of the water Soothes me The soft kiss Reminds me of you The slumber far away Tells me I'm not healed The miles apart Reminds me we never where The snow caped mountains Reminds me of my pure heart The candy on your arm Reminds me you were never worth my time

Today started with a dream of you Today had an email from you Today for a split second, I thought of you And then you were gone Today you said hello Today I didn't hear you Today you appeared for a minute And now you're gone Today you put your foot inside a closed door Today you thought I'll be home Today I had left Today I was gone Today...you were a day too late

I waited so long I lost count of the days Weeks and months And a year I thought that at some point It would all change It will be as it should be As I want it to be And the day came along And I heard it and saw it And at the end all that was left to say was: "Your girl is lovely, Hubbell"

When uncertainty surrounds you... Do you take a leap of faith or Do you wait just one more day...

To all of you Who supported me With all your might To those that loved me And cared Thank you Diamonds and pearls I may not have But I give my praise To those that gave – That gave me love and support When everything else to me felt lost Thank you And to all of you Who tried to put me down You made me strong YOU made me succeed With all your greed You made ME I am who I am And I thank God That I’m me I’m all that I can be I’m not you I’m ME!!!

The first time you said I love you And I couldn't speak The first time you held my hand And I couldn't walk The first Christmas and New Year alone since you left And now you'll hold my hand and help me walk

I saw you on the street Waiting and wanting I had no idea what you feel That about me you are wondering I saw you in my dreams Standing and watching In the distance You and me are matching I saw you in my waking state I saw you as my mate I see my illusion now I see it now too late

Let it rain Let it pour My tears turn to dust For you I cry no more I reach out my hand To try and mend The broken fence The long lost friend You said goodbye Once too many times So let the rain fall For you I cry no more

A new year about to reach all of us at the same time A new year that will be mine Slowly moving towards me It's almost here I remember the day you said "I love you" I remember it as if it was not that far away A year ago a few days before Time changes "I love you" on a quiet New Years Eve Is "I hate you" a year later I cry to try and stop to the pain New Year, do come now To take me away from the pain that never subsides To start afresh To start anew....

Let me be the one to hold you close Let me be the one to wipe your tears Let me be the one to leave you never Let me be the one you love forever Let me stare at you and see you clearly Let me look beyond what the eye can see Let me touch your cheek and kiss you softly Let me hold your heart gently Let me call you sweetheart Let me hold your heart

I woke up this morning and thought to myself "Where has this year gone and what have I done?" The answer might looks as simple as "nothing" when in fact it is not so... I turned 30...flirty and fabulous!! ;) I made friends that I know will last a lifetime I learnt that people can change!! Impossible as it seems, so true! I've excelled at work I managed to smile 90% of the year even though I've had a broken heart all year I had fun! The most important thing in life!!! Because it passes by us so fast and we can never get those small moments back For all those that entered my life and made it better, Thank You! For all those that left my life and made it better...well, enough said ;)

I've learnt that u should never ask people, in these situations, if there's anything u can do, because u can't. I learnt that no matter how much people say they are sorry, it is not their fault. I also learnt that saying "i know how u feel" is a lie, because all of us experience grief in a different way.

Challenge me and I will engage Insult me and I will retaliate Stroke me and I will succumb Follow me and I will lead Make me feel inferior and I will strike out An honest opinion to me, doesn't count Tell me lies to feed my hunger See my faults, release my anger I am but a small part of you I am the unseen driving force I blind you to the truth I am Ego

I just recently learnt about microexpressions, yes I know, it's 2010, where the heck have I been? Strangely enough it was thru a tv series and then it became my new obsession. Who would've thought that by paying closer attention to the microexpressions people have on their faces when saying something or not saying anything at all, you could find out what they were feeling in that precise moment. And the reason I say microexpression and not just expression, is that some people are able to put on a fake smile but seconds later, for a split second, you will see how they truly feel. Like when someone gives you a sympathy smile. Originally the science was limited to identify these human emotions: disgust, anger, fear, happiness, sadness, surprise and contempt. The studies were later refined by Dr Paul Ekman who came up with Facial Action Coding System (FACS). So, want to see if you are able to tell the true human emotion on someone's face? Check out this test :) http://www.cio.

I always knew that external wounds healed more easily than internal ones

I stare into your eyes The deepest ocean I've ever seen The bottomless pit in which I fall Never ending, always falling I see them in my dreams And in my waking state Your eyes, the piercing stare That looks right through me Was I ever really there?

Proximity without intimacy... ..is the truest form of hell -Dante

she is giving colors from wherever she pass... she is sharing feelings she makes u laugh... she has the power ...to hold ur heart... she holds u tight when ur falling apart.. a mix of craziness and some tones of lust.. ladies and gentlemen this is my gabs.. Written yesterday by my lovely friend Isaia. Must say it feels good to have someone write something about me :)

Few things in life are worth fighting for: Freedom is one of them Freedom of speech Freedom of choice Freedom to be YOU!

Or is it? I generally put thought into a gift when I buy it and it doesn't really matter the price as long as it's something I think the person would like and can use at some point. I've recently have a few disagreements with people and I've noticed the common thing I got reminded about was "Remember when I bought you that gift" or "Remember when I did that for you" So really, how does that win you any points in the argument? If I for whatever had a argument with someone I really cared about, I would not bring up stupid shit like that but instead make it clear why I want them in my life. Why I can't afford to lose them. Not some superficial argument, that probably just shows to you once again why it is that this person should not be in your life. I have few friends that I would do anything for and I'd rather have very few of them than have hundreds that just are friends with me for some quota to fulfill on their lists. It should always be the

It's obvious!! After 1400 views of the blog, Fernando James has hit the ball out of the park with the highest views. If u knew him as well as I did, this wouldn't surprise you at all!! He's the second best person I know (I'm the best ;) Dude, you inspire me to become a better person with every conversation we have. I pray to the Universe, that you will never change and only become even better. Coz no one can stop you from being the best! They ain't got nuttin on you!

Roughly translated as: Even a God finds it hard to love and be wise at the same time And yet it is expected of us, as mere humans, to make sound choices when it comes to love. When love enters, reason leaves. Emotion takes over and rationality goes out the window. It's a weakness really, to fall in love. You have no control over the emotions you're feeling and if you do, then it's not love. But in the light of day, life would be so much harsher without our unique rose colored glasses...

When you stop to look and start to see It makes a little more sense between every blink

Sometimes I get inspired by people around me...this is one of those times... I raise you as my own This little boy with the brightest smile He grows to be a kid with energy and humility He grows to be a teenager without angst He becomes the man you think will never exist He keeps your secrets and tell you no lies He remains forever childlike in humility He respects you without expecting it back He shows you that there is good in the world He creates a feeling of happiness when he's near He has a sense of being unique to his age He loves you, even when he's sad He takes the time to know you well He doesn't judge on how you look He stands tall and proud When you hear his name, you want to say: "Can you hear the drums, Fernando?"

Chapter 1 She wakes to see the sun no longer shines She looks around to find her way in the dark She finds a hand that's reaching for her And in the dark she trusts completely Chapter 2 It's nearing dusk now She starts to see the hand that she was holding She tries to release and find her own way She slowly walks into the unknown Chapter 3 When the sun shines, she sees clearly She follows the path she has found She walks more confidently She found her way

Sometimes I write and sometimes I cook... Last night I was feeling very creative for about 15 minutes or so and decided to combine those 2 talents (of my many) and so I decided to come up with a dish that is made specifically to the personality traits of a person, as I perceive them. I came up with 3 recipes so far but seeing as I live alone, I can't cook them all at one go!! So today I decided to cook the dish called "Milo" I'll be explaining the main ingredients but not the recipe. I don't share my recipes:) Ingredients and symbolism: Chicken stuffed with... - it's healthy and so is Milo ...Orange capsicum stuffed with figs in brandy - because even though you're healthy, you still like a drink Some lemon zest - because depending on the mix of ingredients, it can either be the most refreshing thing or the most sour thing Caramelized baby carrots - orange reminds me of you. Baby carrots for your childish behavior but also for your childlike behavior, which

They say Silence is Golden But then The ugly truth is better than the best dressed lie And with Honesty being the best policy Should we just all agree that The Pen is mightier than the sword

Dear John, I remember the first time I kissed you and it meant nothing. I remember the first time I kissed you and my world changed. Those 2 kisses were not so far apart but it took me a lifetime to get there. I remember the first time I saw you and it didn't matter. I remember the first time I looked at you and knew this is where my heart now is. I remember when you walked across the room with your shoulders broad and strong...the arms that would later hold me in the safest place I know. I remember when falling in love with you was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I remember the fear of being hurt, the fear of unrequited love, the fear of waking up one day and you're not there. I remember the morning I woke and you were no longer there... The pain will never be forgotten... Yours forever, Jane

Last year Halloween I decided to dress up for the first time of my adult life! And boy was it a good night!! I wonder what 2010 will hold in store...

I wrote this blog a few weeks ago and thought not to post it. But then I just watched a movie "Why did I get married too" and I figured, I'd post it now Marriage in the 21st century...seriously? Am I really going to go there? Well, yes I think so. I think people are so used to the marriage vows by now, that no one actually listens to them anymore. You've repeated them since you were a kid thanks to movies and television. But really, what's the big idea about marriage? When I was younger, I used to compare getting married to my favorite dish, lasagna. I used to tell my mom that getting married is like having lasagna every day! And finished off the sentence with "although I love my lasagna, do I really want it every single day of the rest of my life" I mean, coz that's in the vows. The whole "forever" bit. The bit that 50% of the world seems to forget if you're looking at divorce rates. So then why get married? I'm not opposed to marr

She wakes from her slumber To see how the world around her has changed A world with no anger, no resentment and no conflict She stands in wonder As her new world surrounds her This is why she slept so long... To wake to a brighter day A new day A better day She finally managed to make her dreams, her reality...

When you've cut it once too many times... ...there's seldom a way to fasten them again

I silently knock at your door, waiting for your to open up and let me in Your stare at me with knowing eyes The facade does not blind you to see the real me The layers of which I am to be made of I look to see your surroundings And to see if I can be me You hold one hand out to welcome me whilst closing the door with the other The door so nearly closes in my face, you want to hide me You pull me through the small opening where few eyes can see I do not exist in most worlds You do not exist in most worlds We can not exist without one another I let you in to look around, to see through the facade To guide me in the dark

Every time I hit rock bottom I will stand up Every time you insult me I will get stronger Every time you belittle me I will rise from your lashings Every time I fail I learn how to succeed Every tear I cry I learn to smile a thousand times Every time you break my heart I will love more

It used to be embarrassing to make the thing behave With skipping beats and fluttering All through a glimpse of your name I see your name and stare at your face And realize my heart now finally behaves

The caliber of man So often measured by stature By material wealth When did money start to make a man of substance When did morals become obsolete When did success start to make you a better person When did principals cease to exist The caliber of man should never be measured by gold The character of man is where the true value lies

With strong conviction she moves forward Guided by the highest good She holds her integrity, respect and freedom close Seeing clearly now With confidence, courage and strength She journeys on With determination, she seeks the positive side of life Cutting lose from the negativity she has around her She holds within a strong protective energy She empowers others as much as possible A aura so strong It took her a long time to acquire To ensure she was strong enough Word play on my SRT reading for my aura :)

I talk to you But I should not I think of you But I must not I whisper your name softly I can not I look at you And think of "What if" I dream of you And wish to never wake I think to touch you And know I never must You are my apple on the tree The forbidden fruit I'd like to eat I know I need to walk right past you But still I stop to stare To see if I can resist This sweet temptation that is you

One soul separated on earth into two The yin and yang, the twin souls Opposites but also not One complementing the other to feel complete Soulmate relationship... It's in the cards

And the list of the top 10 countries :) click on the image to make it bigger Thanks for all those that's been reading...Now it's time to take it to the masses...will be posting the link on my Facebook page today :) xoxo G

When the strongest human emotion can't withstand time When your love for someone just ceases to exist When will we accept that nothing lasts forever

Friends and Family; what is the difference really? Family are the people we are born into We can't chose them, we can't decide who they are or will be We can't make them think the way we think We can't make them see things our way Family, connected by DNA, but how well connected are you really Friends, like I always say, they are the family you chose They are the people you want to let into you life They are the people that you pick because you think alike And sometimes they know more than your family does So does that make one group more important than the other? Does one have to be heritage and the other have to be sanity? Or can the borders cross?

We all know the age old feud of sexism. Let's not pretend equal rights has been around forever. What baffles me in this whole charade is that although today's men are so progressive with their Ipads, Iphones, Blackberries and cars that no longer need to be wound up before chitty bang banging off, they still put women in a box different to theirs. I, for example, am the only female in my area that does my job. And I do it better than most men. This is fine and perfect really, because females are known to better time manage, so here I get praised when I do something just as good as a man. But when it comes to relationships and dating, men still seem to think that they need to be the alpha partner. The women should not be earning more than them, she should not have had more sex than them and for damn sure she should not move on before them. Now tell me, how is that ok? Is it that their male ego gets bruised or is it simply that can't handle independent women? I think when wome

So many people live with regret...For the things they didn't do...the things that's passed...a love that's lost or a friend that's moved on We all have those days when we think back to the past and wished we could rewind time and do it all over again...to enjoy the moment from start to end But we had that moment already...we had the chance to say I love you but didn't....we had the chance to dance but stood in the corner...we had the chance But that was the past and this is now...it's better to not live in reminisce but to treasure every minute that we have... You can look at your past and say "Those were the good old days" Or live in the present and remind yourself that "These are the good old days"

The romantic in me is a very simple girl really. Top 5: Most romantic date - Breakfast in bed. Don't ask me why, but I love it! Most romantic flower - Orchids! 2010 has been 1 of my luckiest years so far...I got at least 3 bouquets with them in it Most romantic gesture - Holding my hand when walking. I completely hate holding hands because I'm not an invalid, but with the right person, it's like walking on sunshine Most romantic place - The beach. It doesn't really matter where in the world you are, the sound of waves are just so soothing. Most romantic thought - "He sent me an sms/called me up, just to say hi" So if romance is this simple, why is it so hard to find?

One of the concepts on which Law of Attraction works is Ask, Believe, Receive. It all sounds so simple and yet its so hard at the same time. Asking no one has a problem with but Believing, every human will struggle with. The question is though, is it that we don't believe we will get what we ask for or that we just don't believe in ourselves? Belief should be without second guessing or questioning. Believing in ourselves should make it easy to believe that whatever we ask the universe to give us, we will get, because we are worthy of getting it. Without Believe, the entire triangle just falls apart and we keep asking and asking with no results. Believe that the concept will work when you Believe...

Do you believe that you are daily surrounded by energies? Well, I do. It's just one of my quirks. I think that there's a lot of energies around us at all times....positive and negative. Negative clearly affects us in negative ways. For instance if you're not happy at work, you're not going to put in much effort. Instead you'll be less productive than most happy workers around you. Negative energy is like a "downer". And the weird thing is, we attract this energy to us by the way we think. Our thoughts is what attracts the different energies to us. Here's an example of how one thought can turn full cycle: I get to work in the morning, not in a good mood coz I had to take a cold shower. I get here and 1 person asks me something that I think is stupid, so that annoys me. I then go into a sulk mode where every small little thing pisses me off and I avoid conversation as much as possible. I finally leave the office and go home. Now I bring all that negativi

9yrs of being friends and still going strong! I miss you and Olinka so much in Dubai! Bug Bug Bug Bug Bug Bug Bug

I actually wrote this as a song...but seeing as no one listens to me in the shower, I thought I'd post it here too :) The door has shut, no light can enter A deafening silence from a heart that beats no longer The touch of your kiss lingers Your embrace still so real I hold on to my memories Crying to never let go Not shedding a tear You will never know my fear I’ve become numb You will never know I’ve become numb I will never show Of the heartless group I’ve become a member The pain you left me with makes me stronger Day by day it passes My love for you has faded I think of you holding me I think of you touching me I think of you lying When you said you’d leave me never I’ve become numb You will never know I’ve become numb I will never show I wake to a new day Your memory has faded I open my eyes I’m finally rid of your lies I’ve become numb But it will never show Hold me now, you want to Leave me never, you promise Leave me now I tell you Forget me never is your fate I’ve bec

The undeniable closeness of us Separated only by counterfeit pride Do I hope it’s more than lust Could we stand the time? My judgment is clouded Your reasons obscure Your feelings so shrouded My heart feels insecure Do you wonder as I do About me and you Are you hoping as me That you and I could be My fear consumes me now I hate being scared To your imperfect character I bow And pray that maybe you cared

It is crazy, do you not think That still by thoughts we are linked I am trying to get over you But my memories stand in queue My days were filled with fun But now you have taken away my sun To think that one day everything was fine and Now you’re no longer mine It was that first kiss That I now hope I’d missed Then I never would have felt this pain That I through your deception have gained But I will get over you Just like I did with the flu I will pretend you don’t exist and You will be just another on my list

Growing pains Is it all in vain? Do we laugh and learn or Is everything of great concern? We go through love and lies Deception and laughter cries The pimples come and sometimes goes Only to be followed by wrinkles that later show How strange life can sometimes be – I never thought I’d fall in love, not me But then I grew older and Along came you with a broad shoulder Young and carefree, Sometimes even careless, that is me Careless with your love I’ll never be Though I sometimes wonder why you chose me Love and lies Deception and laughter cries Life does make you think: Growing pains, is it all in vain?

You hold my hand for the very first time As we slowly walk the streets of London This is the part where it all changes This is the part where I give you my heart

You know those days when it feels as if time stood still for so long yet it feels as if you've been lost for even longer? I'm having one of those days. Those days where you kinda ask yourself "How did I get from there to here?" It's like you don't remember because it all happened in the blink of an eye...a blink that took a little more than a second...more like a year. And in that blink, the changes are massive yet so very subtle. You can see them but you can't fully comprehend them. But you know for sure, this all didn't happen yesterday even though it feels like it, it happened over a year ago...

I recently read on Paulo Coelho's blog the explanation or interpretation of the need to shout when you're angry with someone. The post reads like this: A master asked his disciples: ‘Why do we shout in anger? Why do people shout at each other when they are upset?’ the disciples thought for a while, and one of them said ‘Because we lose our calm, we shout for that.’ ‘But, why to shout when the other person is just next to you? ‘Isn’t it possible to speak to him or her with a soft voice? Why do you shout at a person when you’re angry?’ The disciples gave him some other answers but none satisfied the master. Finally he explained: ‘When two people are angry at each other, their hearts distance a lot. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the stronger they will have to shout to hear each other through that great distance.’ Then the master asked: ‘What happens when two people fall in love? They don’t shout at each other but talk s

Dear Pot, Thanks for calling me black... But try to remember For the 1 finger you point at me 4 is pointing right back at ya! Yours truly, Kettle

The one that stands in line and waits her turn The one that cooks for the man she loves The one that loves you more than you deserve The one that never asks for much in return The one that holds your hand when you're sick The one that cares when you're mad The one that listens when the day was rough The one that can never give enough The one that nurses your broken heart The one that tries to make you laugh The one that knows being friends means the world The one that appreciates the small things The one that finally knows her worth I'm one of a kind This is me!

Change, it's the one thing in life we can all be sure of The evolution of man The seasons Morning and night Change, the one constant thing in our lives And yet we try to fight it at every opportunity Why try something new when something known is a safer bet Why face the unknown when staying on course is less risky So instead we cling to what we know Or what we think we know Change should be embraced It should be appreciated Imagine never experiencing the first day of Spring When all the rain of Winter has passed and the flowers bloom How grey would life be Or never watching the sun set over the sea And see a full moon With all these wonderful changes Why do we still refuse to believe that people can change

She's a little bit quirky A little bit cool A little confused But mostly she confuses you :) She's got a smile that makes you smile She's mostly fab ;) And never drab! She's the quiet girl in the corner She's the wild girl on the dance floor She'll make you laugh or cry when she talks She'll make you smile when she listens She had me shed a tear tonight Because she said farewell My Glorious friend, Catherine I will love you, ever more

When nothing more is left to say When all has been said When your "I love you" falls on deaf ears When anger and resentment is all there is When it feels like that anger will destroy all the happy memories There's nothing left to do But let go...

Are you the mighty Emperor That sits on his throne of rock The one that seems to be the leader We all want to be Are you that Emperor That shows off enthusiasm and energy That is only a smoke screen for your Tyranny and demands Are you the Emperor That looks at his throne as solid foundation Not seeing the throne as also a trap A stagnant point that has you feeling discontent Are you the Emperor That too late will recognize You own unhappiness Of sitting on your throne up high And looking down on the rest of us Are you?

My heart, without you, stopped beating My life, without you, stopped being My days, without you, are empty My nights, never ending Who knew that love can be so over powering That every step I take, is one I want to take with you Who knew that love, unrequited Still could burn in the darkest of nights My nights, without you, are sleepless My dreams, without you, are meaningless Saying "I love you" to someone other than you, is pointless My heart, without you, stopped beating...

I dream of yesterday and today I dream of significant and insignificant events I dream of things to come I dream and see them all I dream to wake, another dream comes true I dream to see, another day as deja vu I dream to see, things that will happen to others I dream of me, always watching the dream I dream a dream of you and me I dream a dream that we were meant to be I dream a dream of us but once The one dream I want Is the dream that never was

Sometimes you make small sacrifices To remind you about humility and gratitude And when its done Smile!! Be grateful for all that you have today Be thankful for the small things

I never let you see me cry I mask my pain with anger I hid my tears so well I forgot they existed

I remember the first time I saw your face I remember the first kiss You gave me I remember it all Nothing will ever erase No one could take your place I never thought I'd feel this way again I never thought I'd love again Then you came along and changed my mind No I never thought I'd feel this way again Never thought I'd love again Then you came along and changed my life

You never let me say goodbye in person I didn't get that final hug I spoke to you a few days earlier And then it was the end... I hugged you on Christmas You smiled when you saw your gift You said you love me on New Year You held me close before my flight You never agree with my decision You thought it wasn't wise But still I left I decided to go I kick my feet I move my arms I feel like I'm trapped I feel like I'm home It feels like I'm floating Surrounded by water This is where I started This is where I began In your heart In your mind With love In your womb

Distance separates us Time does not stand still Temptation around us both But you gave in... I said yes When I should've said no Distance tempts us both But you chose to cheat The statement stands true: If a man is dumb enough to cheat He's stupid enough to get caught My loyalty does not overlook Your indiscretion

The void closes slowly Filling it It's the memories that stays That never fades The thoughts of what was The day you were there And the day you were gone When I fell asleep in your arms When I woke alone When in an instant it all changed The day you left I realized You never loved me The way I do you

When you're stuck in a rut And you've tried just about everything When it seems that nothing will change Demand it! When you're no longer sure of your worth And you question "why" too often Take change by the balls and Demand it! The minute you realize you deserve better Demanding change will be the easiest thing to do

When the waiting game is over When the waiting game is done Tell me, who actually won? /:)

If this is what happiness feels like Don't make it stop Hold my hand and hug me tight If this is what happiness feels like

The ringing doesn't stop I wish it did I don't know why I looked at the phone And felt dread I liked her voice She was really nice She asked how I'm doing and if I'm well I said I couldn't talk, I'm at work She said she didn't want to keep me long She just called to tell me You were with her last night...

Can science in some way be applied to our relationships with other people? I'm not sure but here's a thought... "If the position of matter continuously changes until a person gazes at it, where it temporarily takes a fixed position to the human eye and the law of super position suggests that there is no such thing as an objective or superficial reality, concluding that our observation of reality changes reality." What that tells me is that the end result of anything is based on the way you view it. If I start a relationship, I should start it with the right reasons and look at it the way I envision it should be, filled with love, light and happiness. But if I start a relationship off on the wrong foot, where one or neither person actually wants it, when 1 wants it more than the other, when there's all these "rules" to it, when it's a secret, where 1 sees themselves as the superior one in the relationship, it's never gonna work. Or if I had just m

We spend every day thinking of what others think of us And one day we realize that time has passed You're never more beautiful than you are today You'll never be happier than in the moment when you're doing something you want to do Believe that today is about you Believe that you deserve only the best Believe in all that you are and all that you can be

You said you would never want to see me hurt Does that mean you closed you eyes when I was crying? *Read this online today and loved it!

Its the fear of letting go that has made me hold on so long The fear that has paralized me for so long Its kept me stagnant, never moving forward Its not love that has kept me by your side for so long Its the fear of not knowing how to live without loving you That kept me a constant in your life I feared living without you I feared life without you When I should have been fearing only fear itself Coz that fear is what has kept me where I am Stagnant, never moving, ever still

My darkest of days has past My deepest of sorrow has faded One step in front of the next I made it to my destination I have arrived in the period of light I am surrounded by happiness Love in my heart...more than I can hold Love for myself, those that stayed around and those yet to come!

Now and then a small window opens That lets the light shine in so bright and clear The smallest of space that makes me look at you in a different light And just like that, the window closes The light fades away and I see you at your best... ...when you feel nothing at all...

Ok, the results are even surprising to me I'm not cup half full on most days...I'm just cup half And then "Hello SRT" and the cup is running over! Goodbye Bitter and Hello Sweet Sweet Smiles :) Would I recommend SRT, oh yeah!!!!

Friends... they shape the person that you become And sometimes if you're lucky, you're surrounded by just the right ones at the right time It's always good to see old friends come back into your life And get to know the new ones so that they too become old friends Always keep some "rock n roll" friends around, that you see once a year, but still party with like it's 1999 and nothing's changed And be happy :)

The minute you realize you don't need anyone to "complete" you, that you came into this world a whole person, the sooner you will be happy with who you are and find someone to compliment the individual you already are G Melissa

We sometimes hold on so tight when someone leaves us behind We don't let go and carry them around with us all the time What we don't realize is by not letting them go, we make no room for someone new So when it gets time to Say Goodbye Mourn and cry for the tie that has broken But don't cry too long And when you are done Go out in the world and Say Hello And welcome the new people into your life

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we ac

It's dark an empty around me The silence so loud My heart skips a beat Where are you? I'm breathing in the polluted air I'm filling my lungs with it It suffocates me slightly Where are you? I turn around to look behind I see you in the eye of my mind You're not so far away You're always around

Your face appears in every surface Your presence ever near You're in my every dream And in my waking thoughts The fog rolls in to obscure my vision I can not see your face anymore It's not there daily It's not there The darkness surrounds me Faded voices shouts softly in the distance The feelings engulf me It inflames me My every waking thought My deepest slumber Your face is in every surface Your voice in my ear

Am I The Fool, Standing on a cliff, one foot off the ground Believing in something that never was? Am I The Fool, To want to try one last time To ask every time? Am I The Fool, Not accepting that this is not what you want Thinking there is a way out? Tell me, am I The Fool To believe that love conquers all To have hope? Or am I simply a Fool That can't accept you don't love me?

The time apart seems to have outweighed the time together The criticism and insults seems to have been far more than the compliments I finally see that it's no longer about you It's about me I got over you and I didn't even realize it I've moved on My heart's no longer heavy And I'm no longer sad I got over you...

I finally realized today that it's over I sat down and gave in to this earth shattering pain It's over You never had to earn my love or trust You just always had it And it wasn't enough for you You left me You let me go And now it's over

According to Elizabeth Kübler-Ross, you have to pass 5 stages of grief when you lose someone, when you're the one that gets left behind. Stage 1 - Denial - Oh my friend how I love this stage. "Of course I'm fine." "I'm great!" "This didn't happen, I mean definitely not to me!" Stage 2 - Anger - Now this one, I never wanted to leave!! "I mean, why did it happen to me?" "It's not fair at all!" "What did I do to deserve this heart ache and pain?" "Why did you do this to me?" "Who else can I blame for what just happened?" Stage 3 - Bargaining - I've just reached you and I'm telling you, I hope you work my friend. "I just want one more day", "I promise to quit smoking right now if...", "If I get just one more day, I promise I will treat you better", "If I get one last hug, I will move on" I'm not sure how long it will take me to get to s

We, as women, constantly say how cruel men are... I think I may have found the common thread... They don't just appear We give birth to them They don't just develop We nurture them They don't just get hurt One of us did it first We ask why they are the way they are When we, as women, are the common thread in all their lives

I woke up this morning at 9am to the ringing of my phone I answered a call from my dad but heard no voice I called back and it went to voice mail I called my sister to hear the words "Mom died" The day still plays over and over in my head In a month it will be 2 years And it feels like yesterday It's still hard to believe I lost my best friend The one person that never judged me And while forever I will be sad that you were taken away from me I will always be thankful for the person you made me All the good that I am It's because of you

If home is where the heart is And there's no place like home And the place u always return to is home Then why is my heart no where near my home? Why is my home a place so far away? And why do I not see myself returning there? If you find your true love Why does no one tell you that you might not be his true love? Then does that mean true love does not exist? If your happiness in love is directly dependent on the other person And you can't make them happy Does that mean you should not be happy? If all questions could be answered Would life be easier or Would we simply find another way to make it hard for ourselves?

Some people don't think it's love until it's acknowledged publicly I agree because there should be no reason to be ashamed to be with me

My friends look at you and see the device that broke me My friends say I'm better off My friends say you're no good My friends say being without you is good for me My friends say you never knew how to make me happy My friends say you don't deserve me I have nothing to say... Except... They never saw me at my happiest...in the quiet moments I shared with you

From the ashes she slowly rises She dusts away all that has fallen upon her And looks up... She searches for the memory of how she got here She touches her heart to feel if it beats She breathes... You stand on the edge and watch her You are to proud to help You pretend you don't know her... She's lost in this cruel world She got here for you She was left by you... You look at her like she's a stranger You don't know her at all You look right through her... She looks to find you in the dark She knows you will protect her She doesn't know where to go... You thought of loving her You decided not to try You had no idea... She looks down at her scuffed knees She tries to remember if she prayed for you She dries her eyes... You, no more She rises from the ashes She faces the world as it is She has no idea what it would be with without you She's always looked up to you She's always been so proud to be yours She's yours no more She rises to find her feet The an

...and I don't know how I don't know where to start Or what to say I don't need to lose you, in order for me to know what I have You brighten up my darkest hours You love me for all that I am and all that I'm not I don't want to say goodbye I can't... And when that flight takes off, a part of me leaves with you For my friend Dave who's leaving back to Munich

Unchain my heart One night stand Secret lovers I love your smile Like a star Make it last forever Sometimes I run Another little piece of my heart I'm dreaming of a White Christmas Shaky ground Last kiss Almost lover Goodbye's the saddest word I'll ever hear

Heart: How could you do this to me? Mind: I'm not responsible for your actions Heart: Why did you let this happen to me? Mind: I was not involved in your decisions Heart: I'm breaking and you don't even realize..(sigh) Mind: You're not breaking. I won't let you! Heart: Now you care? Now you say I won't break?! You couldn't think and stop all of this earlier? Mind: I wasn't thinking. I was listening to you. Heart: If you were listening, why did you not speak up for me when I started to beat slower? Why did you not protect me from it all? Mind: You're so strong, I never knew you needed my protection. I set you free to live to your content Heart: But I didn't. I could hear you think it too. But you never said anything. you just let me die small deaths every day. Mind: Not every day. You had some fun. I could feel you beating strongly. Heart: I was trying to get away from you. You let me make so many bad decisions and then you blame me later on. Mind

I sit quietly and observe the world around me I look at the movements and actions All I hear is white noise I listen to my heart no longer beating I see things in my dreams even though I'm no longer sleeping I calm to listen...white noise Where was the white noise when my heart shattered? Where was the white noise when my body raked with sobs? White noise....

I never knew what it felt like to hold hands Until you took my hand in your big one I never knew what it felt like to sleep in someones arms Until you wrapped me in your strong ones I never knew what it felt like to have your breathe taken away Until you carried me up the stairs and told me that you missed me I never knew what it felt like to fall in love Until those tender moments I spent with you

Sometimes I lie awake and wonder How did I give you so much power How have I let you cause me so much pain It's what inside that counts I may have nothing but who I am inside is more than enough It's time that I forgive myself for giving you this power So I can forgive you So I can move on

I forgot what a lingering kiss felt like Until you kissed me last night I forgot what a sensual touch was Until you touched me last night I forgot what it felt like to be loved Until you held me last night

...often make your day! So pull a face and smile all the way!

"If you send this on to 20 people you will be blessed" Seriously? Since when has it become ok to chain mail religion? Was there not a time when religion was a respected thing and now you have fan pages of the church on facebook, constant chain mails of your prayers being answered if you hit forward. Seriously? And here I was thinking that it was between me and my maker the prayer thing, now they tell me I need to spam your inbox in order to get my prayers answered. Send me a joke to my inbox, yes please. Something to put a smile on my face and make my day a little brighter. But please stop chain mailing me to heaven!

It's the distance that makes me mad It's being far apart that makes it hard It's never knowing how you are I've tried to leave I've tried to go I've taken a step And stood very still The grass is not greener on the other side I stand still and breathe...

I sit here in silent pain Crying and dying inside I know you don't love me And yet with you I want to be I sit in the dark Too afraid to stand in the light Afraid to see the flaws that you so often see in me And yet with you I want to be A flower dies when you don't give it any water I died because you didn't give me any love, any romance I died because you didn't care

So as the very consumer driven Valentines Day edges closer and closer on my calendar, I sit and smile to myself. I think it's great to have an entire day dedicated to L-O-V-E. For the emotionally stunted, it's a great day to make an attempt at showing there's a heart in there...For those that think our great planet will stop revolving completely should they utter the words, here's a hint; Try it on this day! For those that think they're too good to say I love you, start wondering who will be around you when you're old and alone. So on this day, the day dedicated to LOVE, the most important emotion (let's face it, it's the only emotion that has a day dedicated to it) tell the person you love how you feel. Make it a day they will always remember and never forget because you never know if they'll still be there next year. So shout it out loud...whisper it in their ear...send it as an sms...put it on their Facebook wall...but don't let the day pass w

I saw a disabled man sweeping the street My heart cried out, it wept for him Why do we still not care? We let him do it, How can we bare? Yes, God made one and all To love and care for each other To be there for one another But why do we let him sweep the street Why not us do the deed? Will we ever stand as one Because this is what the Lord wants For us to live in harmony with each other To care for and love each other Did He not say unto us – “Love thy neighbor as you love yourself”

Sometimes in my life A stranger passes by That I’d stop to stare Though I’m not aware That makes a change Which often seems to amaze Sometimes in a day When thing won’t go my way I think back To what I now lack I think of days gone by Which now lay far behind Sometimes in my dreams I think of what could have been I think of what I would change To have things go my way And sometimes I do weep For our love that could have been

Behind my silence I hide my thoughts Behind my thoughts I hide my words Behind my words I hid the meaning Behind the meaning I hide my heart Behind a closed door no one sees But through an open window the light flows free Behind you there is me Behind me there is who Behind my courage I hide my fear Behind my smile I hide my tears Behind the wall around my heart Flows my love for you that will never part

A plethora of opportunities has dawned on me A bewitching love has captured me A spell of love or lust I’m under That gives me joy in abundance It is unexplainable just how I feel Whilst I know for you my love is real As free as the sun can rise So to my love can shine Perhaps it is because you are you Perhaps you took me out of the blue A plethora of opportunities has dawned on me Your bewitching love has captured me A spell of lust or love I am under It is you that gives me joy in abundance

No mercy I’ll give No loving you’ll receive You broke my heart and Left me with scars that last You deceived and You lied Whilst all the time I was too blind You told me that you love me You said that you cared But that was not true and You know it as well as I do Revenge is always sweet and That, my darling, is what you need To feel the pain and To remember that love is no game